sleep sleep sleep

could not sleep... the fan kept making loud nosies. what a terrible morning this is... three cuts at my face from shaving. went for jog did not help much either., leg pain, panting, hot sun. i just gave up half way.

why do other people feel its ok to do...things to me? you just left halfway, you know i cant believe all those things you said at your blog... its like we had been through so much just so that you can say that i wanted you to vanish?

being greedy

this is the second time i got cut like this again....

whats the love... haha

its new year eve....

went to church in the morning. i was up and listening till the end. then went suntec for lunch.. witness something... bad? at the super market this really big size guy push the head of a, i presume his sister, very hardly and punch her on the arm.. im not sure the parents saw it but i dont know if it pains me or sadened me but i know i was not angry. i was standing at the knifes section, if this was a lawless conutry or if im goldless. i would proberly took one and cut his throat... dealing violence with more violence.

haha thats why you will never find me working as a diplomat, im more likely to be the one holding the gun... i can only pray that im holding the gun because others are not strong enough to fight the bad. but what are bad people? anyway~ sometimes i realy WISH im smarter? to deal with things with the most effective methods. tell you the truth, i rather be a diplomat then a man with the gun...

(if you find me being hypocritical after reading this post... you are entitled to your views)



p.s. entitled to your views means go fuck yourself and eat shit....

2006? HUH??

ARGH!! i meant 200SEVEN!!! hahaha

must be living in the past.... hahaha

3 more days...

happy again!

this two day talking to krys has been very delightful. theres still one pending issue, either way i hope shes really fine now... before that, there were two issues. quite emotionally drain by them. but im thankful that its over.

the most important thing is that THEY ARE ON GOOD TERMS NOW!!! hahaha. most people wont understand this post... =p

2006 has been an up and mostly down ride... im glad and happy (ok lah) of what im having now and will treasure it...

medical checkup

went for medical check up today... the people there are lifeless. they talk like roborts, move like slot and talk with no emotions... maybe the NS guys do the same thing everyday till they soundless mind....

1st station
check urine for drug use..

2nd station
take blood. check for HIV/ADIS. damn man, when i saw this young punk going to take blood i was kind of... WTH, but lucky me this old guy took my blood. hahaha i enjoyed watching sia, dont know why.... its DARK red btw and my hand still hurts....

3rd
hearing... the NS guy who tested me.. see him also sian sia

4th
x-ray, nothing special

5th
dental, the doc pretty sia hahah~ and the NS guy there very frendly.. the only friendly one!

6th
see the doctor there.. the doc.... handsome and young but talk like a dead fish too. i been to the army check up before, back in 2004. that time the doc wanted to see my dick and he ask me cough.... this time dont have. surprise surprise!!

took my weight and heigth there~ put on 10kg!!!! faint~~



before you enter CMPB you must give up your camera phones. put in locker. after the check up i open the locker to find them MISSING!!!!! OMG~ but never panic lah hahaha i went counter, they kept for me, said it was not lock. im like wtF. haha

saw the KING!! now in NS haha my ex classmate, it was really nice seeing him again..


THATS ALL!!

2006 christmas

christams eve

went to a christmas meal with my mother's side of the family, at furama river side hotel. haha very long time never see them, felt kind of weird leh. i felt out of place too. took me a while to get comfortable. hee anyway the food there is ok ba~ the service not bad either. BUT THE SOFT DRINK NO FREE FLOW!!!! what the helll....

went home then...

went shuting house overnight, im with 6 girls alone in the room watching some boring channel U korea love story, it almost bored me to death. then we went down to watch dvd. (yah two story house). we end up choosing brokeback mountain haha. its my second time watching it. after that we played uno. damn it was the longest uno game im even involved. i was the first to finish. have to wait for the rest to finsih too. lasts over an hour before it finished... then desmond came at 3am! 3 freaking am....

time to exchange gifts! i had an red dont know what brand polo shirt! it was nice, i like it hahaha
i gave a big ass pen... its really big haha then found out my present was under budget. so my was the cheapest!! hahahaha SHIT! i was like so paisah lah~ end up owing her another present... then 6am came~ went to mac for breakfast then i walked home...

then 0630 hours ... message came
damn sad to know what happened ba. tears were flowing~ wish i was there to stop it....
well nothing else to talk aobut liao~


christmas day
woke up and sleep and woke up between 7am to 1pm. reply sms haha
kf message me scolding me becasue of FYP, i was like fuck lah~ i know i did not give shit work sia. it cant be shit work... shity christmas sia... relatives came in the afternoon, got this kid sia~ come my room want to play my expensive collection of toys... so ok lor let him play one of them, almost cried when i saw him banging my toy on the bed.... then he want to play my PS2. all mature games sia hahaha. we played together, i walk around and he kills the monsters... then 5pm they left. hmm after that i took cab to clmenti to give adam a FYP folder. took cab sia~ go and return $18.... hai~ mum did not want to drive me there

only thing i enjoy in christmas??? the turkey, ham, roast beef... bascally dinner ba.
And the company of Father....

drastic change

one moment we talk like good friends, the other moment...
not going to lose you too =(


drastic change, hmm how it end up like this

no wisdon (0-0)
not smart (o_0)
too stupid (-_-)
insensitive (-_-ll)
unfeeling (___ ) <----looking at the floor

thats me...


doing the rights things is wrong
doing the wrong things is wrong
dont do anything is wrong
do someting is wrong


so do what now???

as usual please guide me, i really need you this this (in fact i need you all the time)

so many things going on...

today im totally lost, some how it reminded me what happened between me and joy... anyway~ its really confussing lah dont want to say more than what i understood.

whatever i do, i do it because i want to be there for you...



please guide me....

strangers

somebody whome i do not know... left an comment on yesterday's post. i wonder who are the people that reads my blog man...

doug is so interested in my love life...
kf does not seem to care about anything....
sec school friends are MIA i think...

need a hair cut...

cant help

just came back from jog. threw up all my lunch ....

today really talk serious things, as usual with all my wisdom im still... stupid about things. i admit the pains of other people i will never understand. arghhhhhhh i hate to hope, why i dont have the power to make things happened. so sick of not being able to do anything. and why do i always seem to upset people...


bloggy i dont know what to tell you.

hell of a weekend...

went to rong shen's birthday party on sat, haha i think im the highest ba. shouting and drinking... in between sms with krys, halfway through her bro message me.... just want to say thanks for informing me ba kyle...

i thought it was because of what i've said that she became like this, felt so guilty and could not sleep a wink... hmm shuld i be truthful all the time?

and i skipped church again hahaha hai~~ better go next week...

kyle was telling me i only know her for a month, why am i doing all this? i did not realise untill then its really a full month ba haha everyday since the day i know her, i've been talking to her. i think most of the time is she conforts me ba...

ah! at least i get to talk to her last night... though it was only for 10mins.. still feels nice to hear from her ba.

GET BETTER SOON!

fuck friends

im tired and sick of giving....



this the season to be jolly.....bad and fuck up
fa la la la la la la la la..

hmm starting to think what kind of person i am again.. people have said that im a good friend but they still do craps... lots of crap. sometimes i think is my life full of bullshit? i think this time im really trying too hard. my studies, relationships. nothing seems to be smooth. even when reading a book i find it hard to understand... am i stupid? cant seem to do well in school and its worrying. and i cant deal with people this sem for some reasons...

was telling kf the other day, im a person full of flaws. it seem im getting into quarrels with alot of people. i think its me ba. interpersonal skills 0, academic skills, 50-50.

arghhh...


doug, just in case you are reading..... i really never hide your pencil case hahahahaha
kf, yah i told you whole world that you like a chick's drink! hahaha

is anyone reading? or am i just a passing human being

did org mangment test today. i think i screwed up. never had enough time to write so much crap....

today is not a good day to jog. water and mud all over the place. hai~~ and nearly got hit by a car... then it rained again halfway of my run... dont know why, just feel like giving up today. well the good news is i did not haha. completed my run.

hmm. is this the reason why im upset??

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
John 8:32